Goals and Why I suck at sticking to them.

36 pounds.
Right now it seems impossible - without some help. Jordan is trying to help my motivating me with a $300 dollar shopping spree if I can meet my goal weight. First thought: MUST DO IT. Second thought: But it's gonna be haaaaaaaaard (said in the whineyest. voice. EVER.)

 A few years ago I was on Weight Watchers and I lost 20 pounds and was feeling pretty good about it. Why did it work? Because I was accountable. Every week I had to face someone (even if it was a stranger) to address how I was doing and I was paying for it. The first few weeks of starting my program I slacked off... but then I realized "I am paying for this, I HAVE to do it." So I did, and it was a success, while I was on it anyway. One year later, I had gained back 15  of the 20 pounds I had lost.

Right now, I am trying to do this on my own. NEWS FLASH: I suck at it. I honestly do. I can never keep focused but I know what I want. I want to feel good about myself and for me that means losing weight to just feel like my "old" self again. Let's face it, I will never have the pre-baby body I once did, and that bums me out. I am not too pleased about being over 30 pounds overweight AND with stretch marks (something I have never had before now) - by the way that is SO hard for me to admit. And, only 10 of those pounds are to blame on the pregnancy... the other 20 were ALL me.

So what is the point of this post? I am trying to find the will and a way to losing this weight. Trying to brain storm ways to motivate myself. I think the first thing is to take my goal and break it down - focus on 5 pounds at a time with small victories along the way until the grand finale shopping spree my husband has promised me. It is so nice of him to try and motivate me, because he is too sweet and never makes me feel fat or unattractive - he usually makes me feel better about myself. Plus, bringing me down is my job, or at least I must think it is. ANYWAY... the next is figuring out a diet plan. I think that a diet plan will help me because I do better with restrictions (not  crazy ones... but some nonetheless).

So,  I am changing up the game this week. ONE goal of figuring out a diet plan and having it ready to implement next week. Okay, let's do this.